MY SCARS REMIND ME THAT THE PAST IS REAL* [entries|friends|calendar] phish4me171 About Me Name: melissa Gender: girl Height:short Date Of Birth:oct 17 Age: AGE Status: SINGle School: college Location: somewhere, nc My Journal lalalalalalallaaa lalallalalallaaa Music lalalallalalalaa.... lalllalalalalaa... TITLE lalalala lalala INFO FRIENDS CONTACT [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[Monday the 22nd] [ mood | i ♥ hydrocodone!!! ] [ music | tAyLoR sWiFT // ] wow i really never do write in this thing anymore, but i think that i am going to start up again. things are basically the same with me, nothing ever really changes, not for now anyway. i'm pretty much just working all of the time.. i'm not going to school this semester simply because i just can't afford it right now, hopefully i will get to go back in the fall. in other news, i got jury duty. wtf? i DO NOT want jury duty, why must i have it? i do not do good with stuff like that and i have to miss an entire day of work. what a freakin waste of time!!!! has anyone else had this problem yet??? why me, why now? crap. i also have a staph(sp?) bacteria infection in both of my eyes and i cannot wear my contacts for like 2 more weeks. this sucks, i have grown to love my contacts and i am having a very hard time without them. glasses really do suck. and yay!! my new bag i ordered from target FINALLY came today, its only been like 2 freaking weeks. aaaand my new shoes should be coming soon !! they are black and pink adios and i am suuuuuper siked about them!! :) suzie.. i'm really excited that you are having such a great time in spain!! yay!! you must post some pics soon :) LOVE (2) CALI

i'm going as a chocolate chip cookie. [Tuesday the 31st] [ mood | worried ] [ music | the KILLERS../ ] okay soooooo.. tomorrow is november 1st which is the day that i am suppose to move in with my dad. but now that its actually here im not sure that i want to live with him. i mean, i do want to, but its not because i'm trying to get away from my mom, even though me and my mom don't always get along i'd feel weird not seeing her everyday because we have a very strange relationship. its my brother that i'm wanting to get away from because he beats the shit out of my on a regular basis. i think that i was perfectly fine with moving in with my until my mom told me that she was going to turn my room into a "guest room" wtf, who does that? but i am partly excited because i have gotten to buy all new cool stuff to decorate my room in.. i've never had a "decorated room" and i'm just really hyped about it. tonight is halloween and i still have yet to carve any pumpkins .. how sad :( i think i'm gonna go to walmart and buy a couple and carve them before i go to work. hope everyone has fun partying it up tonight i know i will be. LOVE (2) CALI

my birthday [Wednesday the 18th] [ mood | disappointed ] wow it was nice to hear from all of my friends on my birthday, thanks guys. CALI

how exciting [Wednesday the 4th] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | long december / counting crows ] so after an entire week of unsuccessful shopping for new jeans, i finally bought some that i like today, i got 3 new pairs of jeans and 1 pair of dark brown cords. its almost my birthday, how exciting. and soon after that is halloween, which means that melissa is getting unfunctionably drunk. there are atleast 3 different parties on 3 different nights that i will be attending. alcohol has become more than a usual suspect in my daily activities. my dad apparently has a new girlfriend. hopefully this phase will pass soon. and on that note i'm moving in with him on november 1st. aaaand, i'm getting a new car. its a black 2005 honda civic LX special edition. yeah, its like $18,000. so it'll be financed for like 3 years. idk, i'm going to raleigh on tuesday with malorie to test drive it. and shop for halloween costumes. i'm getting contacts on friday. how exciting. CALI

[Saturday the 30th] [ mood | still hung over. ] [ music | you make me smile / blue october ] drunken party at corndale until 4 am + waking up at 11 + running errands all day + going to work in 15 minutes = very bad. i got a new layout. and now i have to go to work. CALI

hate me today. [Tuesday the 5th] [ mood | tired ] [ music | "Hate me"- Blue October ] lately things are just really difficult. its like i have to work all of the fucking time and i am just so sick of it, for example: fri, sat, sun, and monday i literally worked like 10 hours each day without a break. granted i made like $500 those four days, its still really exhausting and leaves me with virtually no time to get any school work done. i'm just so tired. in other good news about work, i think that jessica is getting ready to get fired.. haha. BITCH. i hope she does this time, they've been throwing it around so much lately that i wasn't sure if it was actually going to happen. but i'm crossing my fingers that it does.. the reason i'm so sure of it now is because i saw the schedule for not this coming week, but the next week and her name wasn't on it. haha. 1 up for melissa! and hopefully jessica getting fired will make phill mad enough to quit because his exact words to boylan were: "jessica is more important to me than this job." in other news, MY STEP MONSTER FINALLY MOVED OUT OF MY DAD'S HOUSE!! yay. and now those fucking white trash people are living in some very shady apartments that i wouldnt visit after dark, but then again, thats just me. my step sisters "boyfriend" is apparently becoming good friends with my brother and all they do when they are together is smoke pot. he is almost 19.. WHY IN THE HELL DOES HE WANT TO HANG OUT WITH MY 14 YEAR OLD BROTHER? answer me that. anyway, last night my mom ended up reading some email from him to my bro about some sort of drug deal that they have going down because my bro is a freakin idiot and left his email logged on and minimized on the computer when he went out last night. so i messaged ryan on myspace about it and he said that i was psycho. so i guess being concerned about my brother and his drug usage and his involvment in a drug deal makes me psychotic? my teeth are about to killlllllllllllll me. i haven't been wearing my rubberbands like i should and i have to go to the orthodontist tomorrow so for the past few days i have been wear them doubled up. went to eat lunch with my mom today, and now i feel sick. bleh. i have to work tonight AGAIN.. from 530-cl.. with malorie, and jessica is hosting tonight and she fucking sucks so i'm not really looking forward to that. and its tuesday, our busiest night of the week but hopefully i'll make good money tonight. malorie went and bought the first season of desperate housewives today, i've never seen it but she says its good so we'll probably end up watching that for a few hours tonight after work. or entourage. it really amazes me how many shows on dvd she has. i just dont have time to enjoy those kinds of things because i don't ever have the time to watch them. CALI

[Sunday the 3rd] i hate fucking drama. i'll add on later. CALI

its been awhile.. [Wednesday the 30th] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | hatti snoring next to me ] so i havent'written in this thing since i don't even know when.. at least 3 or 4+ months ago.. so i suppose i'm going to start again because i think this is the only way that im going to know whats going on with everyone. i'll attempt to write more later. ♥ CALI

[Monday the 1st] my lj has apparently fucked up again so i am deleting this one and starting a new one.. my new name is xsugarxmagnolia ... so add me bitches. LOVE (2) CALI

Fuck Tax Day [Friday the 14th] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | humming of the computer ] Soooo tomorrow is april 15th .. aka .. tax day. i cannot find my W-2's. i think it may be somewhere in my car. i really need to find it. even though im a fulltime student and i don't have to pay taxes, i still have to file and i still get some money back. gosh, i love money. pieworks is going great. all the people there are wonderful. im totally in love with this guy who works there, okay, not really. but he is cute. i hung out with emily on monday night, it was nice. after work i went over and had dinner with her and her parents at their house, then me and em went to get ice cream and went to the park. but once we got to the park there was a sketch station wagon that belonged to a man that was sitting inside the slide thing playing his guitar at like 11 oclock at night. who does that? it was alittle too scary for us so we went back to em's house. i have to go and pick up my check from ipd today, which worries me because i really don't want to ever go back in there after the shit that went down last friday on my last day. LOVE (1) CALI

6 DAYS AND COUNTING... [Friday the 31st] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | phone ringing in background.. ] today was an awefully hard/exciting/long/tiring/hopeful day. i put in my one week notice at ipd today. that was the hard part of the day. after two years its hard to let go of something when it has functioned fully for two years as my safety net. i told my manager but i havent told chris anton yet. im dreading that conversation. i got a new job. at pieworks. i'll make like 48502394850934805983 times more money there. thats the exciting part. i had to work a double today. boring. long. tiring. went to the tanning bed this afternoon on my break. got burned. bleh. not much else to say. CALI

Some friends. [Wednesday the 1st] [ mood | pissed off ] i would just like to state that i'm really glad to know that all of you care enough about emily to comment on my former post. she was your friend, you know. (this excludes chris) LOVE (3) CALI

and she could tell from my face that i was fucking high.. [Tuesday the 28th] So I just thought that i would let everyone know that i ran into em's mom tonight and she has informed me that emily is not doing well at all .. she is apparently having a really hard time at unc-charlotte and is struggling with depression.. so if yall have her phone number/email.. give her a call because i bet it would brighten her day. LOVE (2) CALI

Forget your high society, i'm soakin it in kerosene* [Thursday the 16th] [ mood | tired ] Wow.. so i haven't updated in like a month. GO ME. Nothing new is really going on here in the boro.. we got some snow on saturday-- but marietta killed my fun when she told me that NYC got 2 feet and ours didn't even stick. i have decided that my english teacher is a hyper little gay man and he is addicted to energy drinks. My brother broke his leg monday night when he was hauling fire wood to his tent up on his mountain and he slipped on the ice. now he is going to be home for the next three months because it is such a bad break .. they think he will haveto have surgery to put a pin in the bone..\\\ GREAT! there is some crazy mexican man on my roof right now cleaning my gutters and its alittle scary. i have a runny nose, hives, and my hair is falling out.. leaving me with a very attractive bald spot on the side of my head. LOVE (1) CALI

Survey galore !! [Monday the 16th] 8 Firsts... First Best Friend: rachel goans First Kiss: shaughn gunderman First Screen Name: hatteras87 First Pet: chubby -- the bunny First Piercing: Ears when I was 10 First Crush: Doug thie.. 3rd grade? First CD: Hanson-- middle of nowhere First Car: Mazda mx6 7 Lasts... Last Cigarette: about 10 minutes ago Last alcoholic beverage: new years eve.. amaretto sours -- HECK YEAH MAN. Last Car Ride: Coming home from work Last Kiss: awhile ago. Last Movie Seen: October sky.. Last Phone Call: My mom Last CD played: hanson -- underneath 6 Have You Evers.... Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yes Have You Ever Broken the Law: Yes. Have You Ever Been Arrested: No. Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: No. Have You Ever Been in love: no 5 Things.... 5 Things You're Wearing: sweat pants, long sleeve tshirt, glasses, ring from my dad, underwear. 5 Things You Did Yesterday: went to applebees, watched october sky with amber, worked at ipd, took a shower, burned cds. 5 Things You Can't Live Without: My laptop, my truck, my music, my cell phone, my dad. 5 places You've Been: work, wendy's, gas station, ipd, home. 4 favorite things In NO order 1. the mountains 2. music 3. tv 4. harry potter :-) 3 People You Can Tell *Almost* Anything To 1. Amber 2. candis 3. my dad 2 Choices... 1. Black or White: Black. 2. Hot or Cold: um, cooler-- but not COLD. CALI

I have no shame, i'm proud of where i come from, i was born and raised in the boondocks. [Sunday the 8th] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Little Big Town // Boondocks* ] This has not been a good week. School started on thursday at gtcc.. and it was just plain aweful. as i walked from one building to another, it was like walking down the halls at grimsley any of the 4 years that we were there because i saw tons and tons of people that i knew and i hated every minute of it. i saw people not only from our class but from many classes above ours too. pembroke was great for at least one reason because i knew NO ONE and i didn't worry about anything that i did because i didn't know anyone and really didn't care. but now i know everyone and social anxiety is back. woot. went to ed mcKays today.. i hate going there. the people who work there are such assholes. no joke. they are just aweful.i went to sell back like 10 books and i think they took 2.. maybe it was just 1, i really can't remember. but they didn't give me any cash for them, i def got a store credit. whoopty shit. but they did have my math book, and then marietta came out of the attic with her shirt on inside out and three rolls of scotch tape in her hand, and it was only $60 opposed to $95 at the bookstore. they did not have my southern culture book though. DAMMIT. going over to amber's tonight, as usual. i really don't want to be home alone anymore since our house almost got broken into. i have slept with my mom for the past 3 nights. this is getting a little ridiculous, i know, but i am really scared. and i hate being scared. my mom is going to her friends house for dinner so i am going to hang at amber's until she gets home. this is a little bit pitiful. have to work in the morning. and then i have class tomorrow night at 630-930. then i have class on tuesday morning at 730. i hate school. LOVE (1) CALI

aNOthER sURvEy! [Sunday the 1st] ( Awesome stuff i've done in 2005 !! .. Another survey thingy ) CALI

..:: ::ReLEaSE YoUR iNHiBiTiON::::.. [Sunday the 1st] [ mood | 2 hours sleep+hangover=TIRED!! ] [ music | hOT HoT hEAt //~* HEcK yEAh mAN !! ] New YEars eve was crazy.. but i am glad to report that i was quite enjoying it in a drunken stupor, i know all of you who were at KatyBeth's are jealous.. personally i'd have to be completely toasted to just get through that, but that is not important. i spent the day today nursing a hangover and watching the law & order marathon on TNT.. HECK YEAH MAN. then i went and got mexican food with my mom, and now i'm home. i know :: EXCITEMENT GALORE !!! tomorrow i am going to register for classes at good times, and then me suzie and kate - o are supppppppppose to be going to the porn store lol... if yall still want to go someone needs to inform as to the time, etc. well, i am still smelling of amber's vomit from last night.. so i am going to go and take ANOTHER shower. /// * ~~ /// ~~ ** mUH -*- LiS -*- SsSsSSa ** ~~ /// ~~ * /// LOVE (9) CALI

STOLEN FROM BLYTHE [Wednesday the 28th] You are [ ] short, under 5'0 [X] 5'0 - 5'3 [ ] 5'4 - 5'6 [ ] 5'5 -5'7" [ ] 5'8" - 6'0 [ ] tall 6'2 and up NATURALLY [ ] blonde [ ] redhead [ ] auburn [X] brunette [ ] dirty blonde/brownish [ ] dark brown [ ] black [] blue-eyed [X] brown-eyed [ ] green-eyed [ ] hazel eyed [ ] gold/gray-eyed [ ] silver/gray- eyed [ ] blue/green-eyed [ ] blue/grey-eyed [ ] they change colors [x] glasses [ ] contacts [ ] neither [X] short hair [ ] medium [ ] long hair [ ] mohawk You've been: [x] rafting [x] wakeboarding, water skiing [x] camping [ ] horseback riding [x] surfing and skim/wake boarding [ ] water polo [x] snowboarding [ ] skiing [ ] street luging [X] cheerleading [x] lacrosse [x] street hockey [x] gymnastics [ ] martial arts [X] bmx [x] tubing You CANT stand listening to? (what dont you like?) [ ] country [X] classical [ X] techno [ ] oldies [ X] opera [X ] reggeaton [ ] emo [ XXXXXXXXX] 80's [X ] disco [ X] metal [x] hardcore [ ] rock [ X] rap / Hip-Hop [ X] r&b [ ] classic rock [X ] polka The pets you have HAD and have? [] cat [x] dog [ ] lizard [ ] rat [ ] ferret [ X] bunny [x] fish [ ] duck [ ] horse [ X] bird [ ] frog [x] hermit crab [ ] prairie dog [ ] none [ ] turtle [] hamster [ ] snake [ ] gerbil [ ] guinea pig [ ] pig [ ] goat [ ] chinchilla [ ] tarantula [ ] geese [ ] chicken Clothing Brands you like? [ ] American Eagle [ ] Hollister [ ] Buckle [ ] Abercrombie & Fitch [ ] Wal-mart [ ] Wet Seal [X ] O'neil [ ] PacSun [ ] Aeropostale [ X] Dickies [ ] Quicksilver/Roxy [ ] Anchor Blue [ ] Guess [ ] Hot Topic [ ] Lucky [ ] Champs [] Salvation army/goodwill [] other thrift stores [x] if i like it i'll wear it [] Old Navy [ ] Nude States I have been to. [] Alabama [ ] Alaska [ ] Arizona [ ] Arkansas [] California [] Colorado [ ] Connecticut [] Delaware [x] Florida [x]Georgia [ ] Hawaii [ ] Idaho [ ] Illinois [ ] Indiana [ ] Iowa [ ] Kansas [ ] Kentucky [] Louisiana [ ] Maine [] Maryland [ ] Massachusetts [ ] Michigan [ ] Minnesota [ ] Mississippi [ ] Missouri [ ] Montana [ ] Nebraska [ ] Nevada [ ] New Hampshire [] New Jersey [ ] New Mexico [X] New York [x] North Carolina [ ] North Dakota [ ] Ohio [ ] Oklahoma [ ] Oregon [] Pennsylvania [ ] Rhode Island [ X] South Carolina [ ] South Dakota [ ] Tennessee [ ] Texas [ ] Utah [ ] Vermont [x] Virginia [ ] Washington [] Washington DC [ ] West Virginia [ ] Wisconsin [ ] Wyoming Your confessions: [ ] I am really ticklish [ ] I've collected comic books [x] I read the news [] I love Disney movies [ ] I don't kill bugs [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name [ X] I cook well [ X] I have worn pajamas to class [ ] I like Martha Stewart . [x] I am guilty of TyPiNg LiKe ThiS [x] Im self conscious [] I love to laugh!!! [ X] I have been drunk [x] I have tried a cigarette [ ] I can't swallow pills [] I bite my nails [] Gotten lost in the city [ ] Gone out in public in your underwear [X ] Made out in an elevator [ ] Been skydiving [ ] Been bungee jumping [x] Bitten someone [X ] Egged a house/car [ ] Doorbell ditched someone [x--but it wasn't my fault] crashed into a car [X ] Been fired [ ] Been skinny dipping [ X] Caused the windows to fog in a car [ X] Smoked weed Have you ever... [] stolen a sign [] danced in the rain [ X] seen a shooting star [ ] proposed to anyone [] gotten stitches [x] eaten Sushi [x] gotten the chicken pox [] ridden in a taxi [] went on a cruise ship [X] driven over 400 miles in one day [x] been on a plane by yourself [] had surgery [x] seen a movie more than 3 times [x] been on stage [x] gotten a black eye [x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie [X ] watched an entire baseball game on tv Do you like... [] old movies [] musicals [x] blasting music in the car [x] foreign foods [] Christmas time [ ] donuts [x] animals [x] coffee CALI

[Saturday the 24th] [ mood | Pissed the fuck off ] christmas sucks. i'm just wondering.. did all of my friends hang out with each other and not invite me?.. i mean, im just wondering. assholes. LOVE (1) CALI

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